sooooo depressed:S

oh my god,

i'm feeling soooooooooo bad,wat i thought abt&wat i dreamed of&wat i decided 2 do bt later i think it's over

it's just like a castle u built wiz sand on zat beach zat u like bt suddenly a huge leg&hard one damaged ur castle

so how u'll look at him?wiz anger,no i dnt think,u'll look very sorry on z dream u wished,on zat room u intended 2 live in but u r out of it,u cant be inside it again coz it's damaged or it's full now

ok,wat abt ur dream abt sitting in this garden,hearing z sounds of these lovely birds singing around, i can c a lovely smile on z face when u heared these voices,u forget ur anger,ur sadness only u think in zat lovely song zat these birds play

yeah,i visited this garden be4,i sit some in it,i sit abt 11 months in this garden,very happy,i was abt 2 touch these twinkly stars ,although of these bad times which i couldnt find z birds round me but they were always in my heart,bt singing 4 me only

but now,some minutes ago,i saw my garden damaged,it may be true zat i was reason 4 its damage&i stayed z 2 previous years thinking how is z garden,if it's as i left it bt i think i lost also the garden as i lost z palace as i lost many other things i loved alot

i think it's hard 2 forget just feeling,2 forget feeling happy&sad in same time as i felt be4

so wat's now?? although i'm wishing a confirmation bt i think this confirm wont br in my side,although it may increase my sadness bt it'll help in healing or in rebuilding wat years boist

i now can hear my breathing zat is full wiz sadness&anger&sorry 2

bt also i wish a confirm bt how i could reach 2 or how i could know wat's now

...................................................................................i'm so depressed